Erm, so there's two guys I talk to. And, I'm actually not the type to be as into multiple people as I am into the two of them. I'm conflicted about it, like it's really bothering me. Right now, I'm on the phone with one and texting the other. And like, I don't know. It's kind of irritating.

The issue is that, I'm finally starting to recognize number two as a viable option. For the longest (I've known him for two years) I've just been like, oh yeah, that's Dre. He's always been into me, and I've always....idk, allowed him to be into me. Like, I fed it just enough that he'd stay around, but it was no more or less than that. Now, I'm really looking at him, and the other dude I talk to, and I'm trying to force myself to make a decision.

And I wish that these weren't both long distance relationships, because if I could just like....date the two of them, it'd be madd easier, don't you think. I kinda wanna take a trip out to visit both of them, go on a date with each, and then come home and think about it. Like an audition. One lives in Brooklyn, the other in Ft. Wayne, Indiana.

I think I should challenge them. Like, I should make it a competition. But I wouldn't do that, because it's kinda childish, and I'm pretty sure one of em would just be like, "nah, I'm good, if you want old dude, do what you do." I can hear that clear as day, actually.

I'm on the phone with one of these niggas right now, by the way. We're not talking, because....I don't talk on the phone. So, I swear this nigga called just to hear me breathe. Lmao, anyway.

Good morning/night.