"There is little more brave than an honest, personal blogger with no apologies." -Dori (I found out today, her name is actually Dorinae. How cute is that?! lol Hi, Dori)

I am....

sometimes clingy, a lot of the times overemotional, sensitive, and scared of anything that makes me feel too much. Feelings scare the shit out of me, and I have a lot of them, so I spend a lot of my time scared. I'm a little insecure. Not to the point of being psycho, like some females I know, but it's there. And if I value your opinion, and you insult me? I take that to heart. Don't tell me to shake it off. Don't tell me to grow up. Don't tell me to get over it. That's not what I need to hear. Tell me it's okay, and that I've got nothing to worry about. Tell me you'll protect me. What you see is not what you get when it comes to me. I'm a multifaceted individual. People that are transparent are generally one of three things 1) stupid 2) overconfident 3) hiding something. Sometimes, you'll get some fucked mixture of the three. I've been hurt. I don't want to be that girl that's so jaded from her past that she doesn't want to try again, but sometimes, that girl is all I know how to be. I'm not an open book. I am, however, a book, and if you take the time to open me, to read me, to pay a little bit of attention, I'll be everything you need me to be, to the best of my ability, in any case. I don't always make the right decisions. I don't always say the right things. I require patience, firm rules, and boundaries. Sometimes, I try so hard not to let people see the naturally rude part of me, that I come off as fake. Other times, I try so hard not to come off as fake, that I come off as rude. I haven't found the happy medium yet. I'm still looking. I talk a lot, all the time. If I'm not talking, it's because I'm afraid you don't want to hear it. Encourage me. I cry easily. It doesn't always mean I'm sad. Sometimes, it just means I'm nervous, and I need a hug, lol. I need a lot. I know that. I own that. I'm not ashamed. To be a part of my life takes work, and I don't fault anyone who doesn't want that, or doesn't have time for it. However, I'd greatly appreciate it if you wouldn't waste my time. I forgive easily in general, but I never forget anything. Don't lie to me, it's not worth it, I always know. Last, but definitely not least, I'm a work in progress. I'll get better, I just feel like I don't have any support, and if I'm going to be alone anyway, why bother?

.....And I just thought you should know all that.

Till next time: positive energy, high hopes, and love♥