I had the bombest dream last night. Only problem being, I thought I was awake. That's the worst kind of feeling to have, man. 'Cause it wasn't one of those impossible type situations. It would have made perfect sense. The reason I couldn't tell I was dreaming was because it would've made perfect sense. And then I opened my eyes, and it was like....*sigh*. And then I just gave up and went to sleep. I was dreaming again, but at least this time I knew I was, so it sucked less when I woke up.

I know I was supposed to write something from my soul, but I don't have any right now. Soul, that is. I feel like I'm in jail. Like, all the body parts are in working order. Heart's beating, blood's circulating. Breath in, breath out, but there's nothing there. Dramatic sounding, but it's what I feel. That's from my soul. Real talk.

The electricity went off at our house today. Even if it hadn't, the cable, internet, and phones went off. I feel awful. Like, I've done the math. In the past month I've made enough to pay the rent for two months, and if I work for the rest of this month, it will next month too, which we don't need them to pay, which means that money should be coming to me, or given to my mom to cover any expenses she can't get to. So please explain to me why the electricty is off at my house. The fuck am I over here for? Please, somebody please make this make sense to me. What, they think they're just paying the bare minimum and if there's anything left over they can just...keep it? While all the food in my house goes bad cus there's no power? Excuse me?

So mom throws a little fit, goddaddy gives her enough to pay the power. So tell me why he's mad? Mad for what? This is what he's paying for. And he's getting off cheap. He's paying me minimum wage for this. At amounts of time that aren't even legal in this state, and no fucking breaks. So why is he mad that he had to pay the electricity? Why does that upset him? I don't understand. I thought this was the plan. I thought this was what was supposed to be happening.

Eh. Somebody's home, so...I'm just gonna shut the fuck up. That's my soul.

Till Next Time,
-A.