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H on est ly ,

The night is always darkest just before the dawn.

And by the way I adore you.....in frightening, dangerous ways....
22.12.08

One day, I'm going to say that to somebody. Like you have no idea. Cute celebrity quote?

"I don't really care if people say I'm a bad actor, I can like work on that, but if they just say that he's ugly that's just like "oh.. really?" -I'm not telling you.

You'd have to see the look on his face when he said really though. It was priceless. Celebrity interviews are full of little treasures like that.

My next youtube video (yeah, I know I haven't done one in a while) will be I Would Rather Go Blind. The Etta James version, but I doubt I'll get through it without letting some of the Beyonce slip through. And I'm pretty sure I'm gonna cry. It'll be perfect.

This whole blog is just mindless babble because its almost 8 in the morning and I haven't slept. I'm so awake that I've cleaned my room, and read the entire Twilight saga. And I'm still just sitting here. Its impossible.

Did I tell you guys I imported all the blogs from the original literary-romance over to this blog? They're all here now. You can click older posts till your little fingers fall off. I used to be a hell of a follower. You can see it in the way I typed. If you don't believe me, seriously, go look.

I typed liike thiis. I hate bitches that type like that. Honestly, and I always have. I just did it cus everyone else did. You know what I hate now? Random misplaced capitalization. sHit LiKe ThiS. For what? Man, people are so fucking slow. Lol.

My twin is upsetting me. She thinks that I'm going to get back with Bruce because we're speaking again. I still haven't told him I plan to move. I'm pretty sure he knows though. His new plan seems to be involving a whole hell of a lot of El Camino. Whatever. Que Sera && things of the nature. But like I was saying about twin, she thinks he's going to turn his life around and all the sudden be worthy. I was like, I might get back with him then. && Then she was like no, I think you're going to get back with him sooner than that. I think you're just going to wait for him to get it right. Why in good God's name would I do some shit like that?......again? I mean yeah, if he gets it together, and still wants me after he does, Bruce may have a shot. But why would I get with him before that? YOu know Einstein's definition of insanity right?

Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over, yet expecting different results

I'm a little crazy, but I'm not insane. When something changes, Bruce and I can talk, till then, we can't, and fuck anybody assuming that I don't have enough respect for myself to know that he's not good for me. Cause thats exactly what you're saying when you tell me that you think I'm going to put myself in a relationship, knowing its against my better interests. Thats insulting. Your intentions don't matter. Still insulting.

Now that I'm done with that rant. Today is December 22, technically. I mean, the sun is up, so I guess it is officially. Weird I've been up all night doing nothing. My birthday is in two days. Go to american greetings and get me a sick ass ECard. Something interactive. Those make me giggle.

I'm going to put the tagboard section back on this blog (yuck) and use it as a promotions area. Jay Adams, Ace da Vinci, Socialvibe, Artists I'm into, Music I'm into, graphic designers I'm following. You get the drift. I think it could be put to good use if done properly. I'll do that when I wake up though, cus the little white blogger box is making me hella sleepy.

"Tell me that you love me, and everything will be alright. Are you thinking of me? Then come with me tonight. You know I need you, just like you need me. Can't stop. Won't stop. I must be dreaming. Can't stop. Won't stop. I must be dreaming."

-A.


Ashley

just another little black girl with dreams. I play my music too loud, and I don't listen. I'm only at peace when I'm in pain: when my wrist is sore from writing my emotions out like blood on the band-aid of a page, or when my throat is raw from singing my thoughts like tears into the air. I'm conflicted, and unrepentant, and I like the way this blogging shit makes me feel. This is the one and only place I'll never lie, honestly.

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