I've been hella tired lately, like it doesn't even make any sense. I fall asleep on the bus on the way to work, I fall asleep at work, I fall asleep on the bus on the way to school, I fall asleep at school, I fall asleep on the bus on the way home from school, then by the time I get home, I'm up. =| I'm sure you see how this can be problematic. So today, when I got home I was like 'fuck this, I'm going to sleep.' I knew I'd be up madd early but I figured I'd clean my room or something. I really do need to clean it, its getting gross again. Anyway. I went to sleep at 8.

Now its 3 in the morning, and I'm wide awake.

Now there's some people in the world that can only get a set amount of sleep. &+ I did used to think I was one of them. Like if you put me to bed at ten, I'd wake up at five, so I was like okay, seven hours of sleep, thats me. But then, my sleep schedule started getting thrown off && i'd sleep for all sorts of ridiculous hours. Once, I was asleep for a solid twelve (four AM to four PM, it was nightmarish). So after all that I figured I wasn't one of those set hours of sleep people. And now look at me.

& I'm hella not cleaning my room until the sun comes up. I mean I'll do it, but I'ma chill here for like five more hours. Omgsh. No! See?! I don't wanna waste my fucking day like that. I would go to 24, but its raining. Fuck walking to 24 & back in the rain. 'Oh, I was trying to get healthy, & just happened to catch pneumonia in the process." Yea, right. It always amazes me when I spell pneumonia right. Like, that u/e thing? I always feel like its gotta be a trick.

And tell me why I had this completely pointless, nonsensical ass dream that we had a night school class in the support room of my job? Wait, no. Like I can't remember the whole dream. At first we were in the break room of my job with blankets on the floor playing GTA. But that was just like Me, && Dale, && Belinda. Then we were having a weird night school class in the support room. But like, I wasn't. Like they were in one portion, && I was in another, fucking around. No! I was talking to Jen, our production coordinator, cus she was showing me some stuff on youtube, like how she wanted me to move && dress for the night school play && stuff. &+ then Chase started playing I'll Be in the Sky (the main song on here) on the guitar. And then I got a call from this little girl named Sol, who's supposedly my Cousin Kenisha's daughter. She didn't say Kenisha though. I just figured she meant Kenisha cus I knew it was my Aunt Sherise calling, I recognized her voice. I think I was actually thinking of my cousin Paris' baby, cus they were calling from Denver*. So basically my brain just got hella confused. Last thing about this dream that makes it hella crazy, is that when I walked out of the support room to take the call, I was actually in the main hallway of my house, like I'd just walked out of my bathroom. I walked in the ktichen to get something to drink, and woke up realizing I was thirsty as hell.

Its weird cus now that I think about it, that pretty much sums up everything I've been thinking about for the past two weeks. Work, school, work, work, work, work, and the mass quantity of cousins, all in my age range, that're getting pregnant like that shit is in fashion. Don't get me wrong, I mean, thats what black families do, right? You've always got between 2 and 7 pregnant family members. I guess its irkin me because its never been that close to my generation before. My cousin Shaky got pregnant last summer, she's only a year older than me. Paris is pregnant, she's only two years older than me. Kenisha's not pregnant, I don't think, but its possible, she's a year older than me. My friend Brittney's talkin about how she might be pregnant. I guarantee you, my cousin Decko will be pregnant before the end of next year, and she's a year younger than me. Its so weird, that we're at that stage in life. I don't know, its just irking me.

Zula! A) I was laughin so hard when I seen that layout. See? If people were as original as me, we wouldn't be having these problems. B) I actually wanted the purple Nano for a second, cus I thought it was dark blue, && then the orange one, cus it looks Gold, but I'ma just stick with my good old fashioned blue one. c) Why when you said top part of your phone, I read pop tart like 8 times? I'MHUNGRY! =[ & we have to communicate through blogs now I guess since we're never on yahoo at the same time anymore. Sad as that is. =/

Yea, you actually didn't have to read that last paragraph, but its okay. I forgive you.

-A.

*You ever said something, and read it over, && realized you said something other than you just thought you said? lol I get Denver, Colorado and Chicago, Illinois confused, all the time. I have since I was like three. Cus the first time we went to Chicago, we took the Greyhound, && we had to get off and switch buses, and we did that in Denver. So I'm like, "mommy are we there yet?" && this female gone lie and say "just about". So I've always associated them with each other, even though I know Denver ain't no kinda "just about" Chicago. Kay, I'm gonna try sleep again now.

//edit// I didn't go to sleep when I finished this blog, I went to go fiddle around with the new blog idea. Yall remember the tester blog link? You can look if you want. Boy do I have some shit for you. =D