Like duh, people.
treatyougood.m4p
"She fancied herself in love with almost every man she met, for varying amounts of time. Those amounts of time depending on the range of their likability counted against the range of her loneliness. She also fancied almost every man she met in love with her. Presumptuous, one might think, but then they'd see the shock and disbelief she experienced when someone did like her, and change their minds immediately. She was in desperate need, but of what she didn't quite know. If she knew, she told herself, if she could figure it out, she'd get it, and it'd be done. However, figuring it out was the hardest part, because the answer to everything seemed to be love, and she was smart enough to know that it couldn't be that easy. If it was, why on Earth was it so hard?
She credited many a heartbreak to loneliness. A vicious cycle it was: loneliness would break her heart until she felt she had to tangle herself up in a relationship, that only served to break her heart all over again. And so went, one man after another, until she'd convinced herself that it had to be men, because she'd tried everything. And so it went again, one woman after the other, and so on and so forth, until now.
Now, not in the sense of this very moment, but this time and space in her life. Now, she realizes that the key to love is love. That loving another is impossible without an overwhelming love for oneself. Its harder than you'd think, coming to terms with the fact that you don't love yourself as much as you should. Harder than you'd think, to admit that to other people. The hard things, however, have always been the best things for her. The harder it was, the more she got from it. So now -not in the sense of this very moment, but this time and space in her life - she's bearing down, preparing for the cold winter, the loneliness, the heartbreak, and the phoenix from the ashes."
I'd write a novel if I could get everything I write to stop sounding so bloody autobiographical.
I'm done. =]
-A.
//edit// I was really tryna feel Terrance Howard && his singing, but its not happening. I'm SORRY! [ looka ]
