I just want it to be known, exactly how long I've been blogging. The little blog profile thingy will inform you that I've been blogging since February 07. Thats right. I've been blogging since before blogging was cool. Since before everyone had their nifty background celebrity banners &+ they're intimidatingly extensive blog rolls. &+ before I came to this magical place called blogger, you know those blogs myspace offers? I really used them. Like really. I blogged the hell out of those blogs. They got on my nerves though. I didn't like the comments. It always felt like judgement when someone commented my blog. Like "oh, this ones worth talking about, but that ones not," plus the things people on myspace say.....its ridiculous. I mean, I feel like if I wanted your opinion on the issue at hand, I would've come and talked to you about it. Blogging, in all actuality, has been a pretty steady part of my life since about 2004. Blogger, this wonderful website where we spend far too many minutes of our lives, has been with me since early 2007, and we have a cycle, blogger and I, one that I'm thinking I should break but, you know how cycles are.

See, I'll blog for about six months straight. Pour my heart out, expecting it to feel better. But it doesn't. So then I go find alll the blogger friends I possibly can, hoping that having someone to talk about it with after I blog it, will make it feel better. But it doesn't, &+ then I realize thats just more people with my sometimes embarrassing business. So then I stop blogging. I say fuck it, &+ I just stop. This lasts for maybe a week. When I say "stop blogging" I don't mean not writing anything at all persay. Sometimes I'll start doing those today-i-woke-up-went-to-work-came-home-and-now-i'm-going-to-sleep-the-end-goodbye blogs. But after a while of that, it becomes, honestly, like a slow burn in my heart. Like I just have to write it. I just have to type it. I've just got to get it off of my chest. And so I come back, usually with a secret blog that only select people have access to. But then I start to miss the sense of community that came with everyone knowing where my blog is and me knowing where everyone's blog is so, the cycle begins again.

Example? In the beginning my blog name was Reina. I blogged there when I first started, from Feb-07 to June 07. Then I made a new blog, grownwoman, where I blogged from June 07 till....well. lol In Dec 07 grownwoman became the blog you now know as literary-romance, though it went through about fifty million name changes before it got there. the blog once known as Reina, became hiphophurray. In something like mid June, I started a third blog, written obsession, for poetry. Then I stopped writing in literary-romance, &+ turned hiphophurray into the syllable seduction you may or may not be reading now. Its retarded really.


ITYPEDALLTHATTHISMORNINGBEFOREIWENTTOWORK. &+ now i'm staring at it trying to remember what the moral of the story was.

-thinks
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Ehh ; whatever.

-clicks "publish post" button.