Ughhh. The monthly bleeding has begun. NOT that you necessarily needed to know that, but it was a pretty solid heads up just in case you get snapped on for something random later. Can't say I ain't warn you, right?

I was listenin to Illdividual radio earlier. That was a bomb show. Talkin about gays && lesbians and whether or not you should love people regardless or whatever && this one dude on there was talkin about his sister who's a a lesbian, && how he just thought it was so disgusting that he couldnt' even speak to her and he just despised her lifestyle and blah dee blah blah. And I was dyin cus I was thinking about Elmo. Like, I don't know if yall know about Elmo but thats my older sister, she's linked on the blog, she's lesbian, she's doing all the surgeries && whatnot, && i mean, biblically, I understand that its not what she's supposed to be doing, and its not what God has planned for her, but honestly?

1) I believe that everything you experience in your life, God knew was going to happen. Yes, he gave us free will, but you think he doesn't know which way we're going to go? Or what the outcomes are either way? So no, I don't think God necessarily condemns my sister for the simple fact that what she's going through (no I won't call it a phase in respect of her choices) is something necessary for her to go through in order for her to be the person she was created to be. You have no idea how much strength it takes to be gay in society today. People are just so damn mean.

2) Before she's gay, or lesbian, or whatever term you want to pull out of your stereotypical little hat, before all of that, thats my fucking sister. That love is unconditional. Me and that girl have been through too much shit for me to decide I don't love her because she's decided she wants to spend the rest of her life with a woman. Fuck does that have to do with me? If she's happy then she's happy. And I will personally go upside the head of anyone who has the audacity to try to prevent her from living her life happily.

3) Before she's my sister, she's a human fucking being. And as human fucking beings none of us should allow anyone to be treated as anything less than a respectable person for the choices that they've made. In Gods eyes, all sins are the same, whether its murder or theft. So since I know I've sinned, who the hell am I to tell her that her sin is so terrible that I'm going to disown her? "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone"? I mean shit, you wanna talk bible verses, I'll give you bible verses.

I'm just saying. I was listening to this dude talk shit about his sister. And then she called in and was talkin about how their relationship is, and I was just thinking about my sister. Cus, man. For all the ppl in the chat room talking about how gayness was wrong and she was gonna burn in hell and it was against the bible. Do you realize that out of everybody who says that, maybe one in ten ppl know what the bible verse actually says?! FUCK KINDA BULLSHIT IS THAT?! I'm on one about this if you hadn't noticed cus its so fucking stupid. You're telling me we're gonna throw out every bible verse that says love your neighbor as though he was your brother, every bible verse that says hate the sin and love the sinner, every one that says if your brother betrays you seven times, you're to forgive him seven times seven, every one that says everything about loving each other, we're gonna trade all that in for one that might possibly say something that could be loosely interpreted as [butdon'tlikegayppl]

All I'm saying is, if you have a problem with homosexuality, you need to look your sins in the mirror, work your shit out and then come talk to somebody else. Remove to branch in your eye, before the twig in mine. WHICHISALSO, in the bible.

INOTHERFUCKINGNEWS[yea i know, i'm feelin that caps lock today, partially because the button is broken && i figure if I hit it enough it'll act like it has some sense, yea?]

I'm on the phone with my godfather on my lunch break, where I was standing outside cus it felt mad good and my stomach hurt so I was doing anything that felt mad good and my godfathers like where's the kid that bought the milkshake. [his name is Edan if you needed a refresher, cus I have been callin him milkshake kid for a couple posts now, my fault.] && I'm like he's right here. He's working. && godfather was like you should give him your number. && I was like......


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&& godfather was like, no you really should. && I was like....


fuck this, I'm not givin yall the whole story. Short version:

I gave him my number. He called, we're going out Monday. Bowling. I actually love bowling. My grandfather used to bowl daily (RIP) so keep your corny bowling comments to your fucking self thx.

[not that anyone comments my blog, *sad face*]

I actually think I'm going to go rest now. I feel really good about the length of this blog thought...feels like.....we're back[/drake].

A.