Darian*now was wrong?
Ash*people get on my fuckin nerves is all
Darian*on hea?
Ash*nah. don't nobody give a fuck about niggas on yahoo. :-j
Darian*like
Darian*jus people u kno?
Ash*fam
Darian*o
Darian*how u gonna get rid of da bullshit
Ash*i can't
Ash*the bullshit is my mother
Darian*wha she did 2 u
Ash*nothing. thats the problem
Ash*she doesn't
Ash*do
Ash*any
Ash*fucking
Ash*thing
Ash*i'm the only person in this house with a job
Ash*+ i go to school
Ash*+ i cook
Ash*+ i clean
Ash*+ i go to church
Ash*+ outside choir performaces
Ash*&& all this female o
Ash*do*
Ash*is bitch
Ash*and moan
Ash*and tell me the house is still a mess
Ash*and ask me for fucking money
Ash*and try to tell me what to do
Ash*with my shit
Ash*like all her advice
Ash*worked so well for her
Darian*wow @ her
Darian*all dat
Darian*id b tryna move out
Ash*i am moving out
Ash*in Jan when i turn 18
Ash*but
Ash*its only May now
Ash*&& if i left now
Ash*she wouldn't have enough money
Ash*to fuckin breathe
Ash*&& even tho she get on my gotdamn nerves
Ash*i'm not gone leave her out in the cold like that
Ash*&& i'm not gone leave my little brother out in the cold like that
Ash*i'm just irritated
Ash*cus this is fucking bullshit
Darian*so u jus gon take da shit for a year?
8Ash*half a year*
Ash*&& yea
Ash*the fuck else i'm supposed to do?
Ash*thats still my mother
Darian*yea
Darian*i know


Complain complain complain complain nag nag complain. Gone tell me I can't got to work Monday night cus she has a date with a dude she met on BLACKPLANET. And ask me for gas money in the same sentence. UGHHHHHH i'm through. Like hella. I know summa yall are confused right now cus you're thinking I got the coolest mom in the world, but in reality she's just making up for bullshit in the past. Very few people know what my mom has put me through, and a couple years of her being cool and cracking jokes isn't a blessing from god, its exactly what the fuck I deserve. I just don't see how she's seriously doing this. Like its okay to do it. Like isn't something in your head ashamed that your daughters giving you money for gas? That you're driving your neices car? That your brother's paying your rent? That the governments buying your groceries? && don't you think that shame would maybe PREVENT you from talking SO MUCH SHIT ABOUT EVERYTHING? Nope. Exact opposite response. Its because she feels so ashamed that she acts like this. BEcause she wants the whole world to think she's in control. Ma, if by any chance you decided to come read my blog today, I want you to kno that I know that you're not in control. && I want you to know that this lil facade you put on for other people is getting on my nerves. && that you should practice being more concerned with what you're family thinks then "other people" cus, as I'm sure you've noticed, its not "other people" that pay your bills when times get hard. Its us.

But oh, when I look around, and think things over..All of my good days outweigh my bad days, so I won't complain
'qone.