I dare you to read it all. I double dog muhfuckin dare you to do it. You won't tho. Pussy.
[[gold stars to those that do]]

Bleh. I wanted to write about relationships. Not a blog though, like an actual article. I was going to put it on the hip-hop hurray blog. When I wrote it. But for some reason I can’t. I guess I’m just not good enough yet to take the things that really get on my nerves about life and put them into a more professional context. Its cool. I’ll get there. Until I do though, you guys are just going to have to listen to me rant and rave until I feel better. And the cool thing about writing a blog instead of an actual article is that now I get to name names. Think I won’t? Nah, you know I will.

“No I take that back cus I never really trusted you, I just did what I had to do cus I loved you.” That right there is what the fuck is wrong with relationships today. That.right.there. It is not possible to love someone that you don’t trust. It is not possible. Its possible to love someone that you don’t want to trust. Its possible for your mind to say one thing and your heart to say another. But it is not possible to not trust a person and still claim that you love them. Its just not. People use that word love way too lightly. They’ve forgotten that love is the pentacle. It’s the top. There are people that spend their whole life climbing mountains trying to get to love and you were in love at 13? Rly? Fuck outta here. No you weren’t. You were in like, strong like, heavy like, hormonally driven lust, infatuation (infatuation being the worst because that shit will make you really think you’re in love), you were fascinated, confused, enthralled. But you were not IN LOVE in middle school. ESPECIALLY not if yall broke up a year later because you got tired of each other. Nope. Love is not something you get tired of. Nor is it something you throw away. You people sicken me really.

And there are so many things I could blame. There are so many reasons I can give you as to why people claim to be in love so fucking much and aren’t. I mean, I could blame the media making every bitch you see on tv the skinniest, most terrifyingly georgeous creature you’ve ever seen in your life. Or in the case of males, the tallest, buffest, sexiest thing breathing. From the youngest age, you’re taught that that’s what you’re supposed to want, or that’s what you should be, and when you realize you aren’t that, its not even possible for you to be that, you lose confidence, you lose trust in yourself and if you don’t trust you how the hell are you going to trust somebody else? If you don’t love you how the hell do you think you’ll magically fall in love?

I could blame music, making females think that every nigga is exactly the same. Making you think that all they want is sex, or bitches and hoes, or whatever. ALL NIGGAS DON’T WANT THAT! Fuck MOST niggas don’t even want that. The problem is, they think they do. Why? 50 cent told em so. Fuck that shit. My advice as far as listenin to rappers? Only listen to the ones with longevity. Jay-Z? Married. Kanye? Engaged (well, the engagements broken at the moment but him && Lexi always get back), Nas? Married. You getting the picture? Stop fuckin listenin to the niggas that ain’t got no money!! Stop emulating the niggas that ain’t doin shit with they lives no way! You fuckin up you messin round with them. && that was my little piece for the men.

Or I could blame just, the way our world works. So much fucked up shit happens to people. So much fucked up shit, when they’re young too, that they harden their hearts. They blame the world, they blame everybody for everything. And they don’t trust anyone because of the hurt they’ve experienced. And so they’ve blocked off the possibility of love because they can’t deal with the possibility of hurt.

The saddest part about that being that these are the people who usually rush into love. They’re the ones that want somebody to love them, just to be prove that its possible for them to be loved. They want somebody to hold them and tell them everythings goin to be okay. They want someone to confide in. And so they get a boyfriend/girlfriend, and they expect that person to magically wash all the wounds away. And it might work. For a while. But eventually theres going to be a fight. And somebody’s going to say something to hurt somebody else. And because you’ve been hurt so badly in the past, you’re going to shut down. You’re not going to listen, you’re not going to try to work it out. You go straight into the battle position, and all the sudden its if you’re going to hurt me I’m going to hurt you worse. Back and forth and back in forth until everybody’s miserable. “I’m not mad.” Fuck outta here. You’re a fucking mess and you kno it. And I know it, and the person you love knows it.

The movies and books and songs make love look easy. Even the ones talking about how hard it is still make it look easy. But its not. Because there are requirements, there are things you have to do, things that its absolutely necessary to do, so that they can be happy.

So now I’m going to get to the name calling part. Because you deserve to be happy. Yes. You deserve to be happy. Kris, you deserve it. Darian, you deserve it. Samantha, you deserve it. Daniel, you deserve it. Earnest, you deserve it. Brandon, you deserve it. Shonyae, you deserve it. Alexandra, you deserve it. And I understand that there’s a fear, a fear of things not going your way. A fear of things turning for the worst, a fear of you being back in the same pain you were in before. But you’ve been in it before and you know how to come back out. Nothing is going to go your way, nothing is going to work out for you until you can push that fear away and go get what you deserve. Simply because you deserve it.

‘qone.


Whoooo!! you did not read all that shit. You read the first && last paragraphs. You are a muhfuckin lie. Lmao. I wouldn'ta read it all neither if I hadn't wrote it. Ain't that bout a blue eyed bitch...?