This yellow is bright && starting to wear at my nerves. I'll be changing it as soon as I finish this post.

[thee following post is sure to sound madd conceited]

Why is everyone so convinced that they're in love with me? Whoo, yea that did sound conceited. It was meant too tho. I mean like I'm textin Earnest talkin bout how he's gone stay single && just get focused or whatever. && i'm like yea thats all good && well but if the right girl comes along don't block her out over some shit in the past. He gone say "-looks at you." Nigga is yo eye lazy or sumn? What would you look at me for? I'm not bout shit. lmao. I mean forreal tho. Errbody kno i do/say some fucked up shit. So why would you think I'm the person that you'd actually wanna be in love with. I really don't think it has anything to do with me. I think it has a lot more to do with wanting to be in love than actually being in love. Cus i mean....summa this shit don't make no sense.

AND THEN I was talking to Brandon about how he needa go ahead && get with youknowwho. && then somehow we started talkin about me && him && how he'll never get over me or whatever because he was in love with me. FORWHAT?! Come on now. That was not nothin like a loving relationship. There wasn't enough time for you to love me. You actually don't know shit about me like. Forreal? Once again, more wanting to be in love than actually loving.

&& then last but not least this nigga Bruce who swore I was his soulmate till I told him I ain't want his ass no more then all the sudden he's like okay well lets "just be friends", except for he doesn't know how to be my friend so now he's just actin like an asshole && i'm like damn well if this is how you gone be then shit was it ever anything there to begin with? Like seriously what the fuck is the point?

I think "love" the way yall niggas is thinkin of it don't even exist. Its not some magical, fix all cure for all the problems in your life. Iono. I guess I'm just tired of people faking it. No point. Cus then when you find the real thing you won't even know what it is you'll be too busy all caught up in the fake shit. Make sense? Betchu it does.

In other news
Been talkin to my long lost favorite buddy Brian again lately. Me && this nigga go back to like 8th grade PE. What? Yes. I had the biggesttttt crush on him in 9th grade after I broke up with Jeremy. I wrote him a letter && everything. and [big surprise] I actually gave it to him. He ain't like me like that tho. He liked a girl named Andrea at the time I think. Anywaysz. -resumes aim conversation with this nigga.

'qone.