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H on est ly ,

The night is always darkest just before the dawn.

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11.4.08

Bruce pissed me the fuck off to day. Like really. I came home from work ; i was tired as shit && my mouth hurt ; && this nigga gone call talkin bout some "Ashley guess what?! I passed the written version of my drivers test today!! I do the actual driving test in three days!!!". =|. Now, as an innocent bystander, you're probably wondering why in the hell that would piss me off. Lemme splain it to you:

[ 2 months ago ]

Me: So i was thinkin, to keep us both on track, we'll turn this into a competition. You know, like who can get the phone turned on first, who can get the job first, who can get the car first....Oh! Do you have your permit yet?
Him: Permit? No sweetie. I've had my license for six months
Me: Oh...-giggle, well you don't have to worry about that part then.
Him: Nope, but you might wanna catch up.
Me: .....



So BASICALLY this nigga ain't wanna get his damn FEELINGS HURT two months ago && he told me he had his license when he didn't. Okay but thats not the point. Its bullshit but its actually really not to the point. The point is this:

[ Today ]

Me: You lie
Him: I'm dead serious
Me: Yea but you lie
Him: No but I'm dead serious right now
Me: No, I'm not saying that you're lying right now, I'm saying that you lie in general.
Him: No I don't.
Me: Yes the fuck you do.
Him: Gimme an example.
Me: two months ago you told me you had your license.
Him: Yea cus you were pressurin me about it so I told you I had it.
Me: I wasn't pressurin you. I said hey do you have your permit and you said no I have my license. No pressure there. You lied.
Him: Okay I lied.
Me: Why would you lie about somethin like that?
Him: Sweetheart I lie about lil shit like that all the time.
Me: ......why?
Him: I don't know. I do it to everybody.
Me: Okay but that ain't explain why you do it to me.
Him: It don't even matter, its not like you ever find out.
Me: NIGGA! you know what? nevermind.
click.

okay lemme just rant for a minute. cus for one thing : I ALWAYS know when he's lying. Just like when he said "I took a proficiency test to get out of high school, but I don't have my diploma." I knew that was code for "I DROPPED OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL". but its whatever most of the time. Cus i mean most times he don't wanna seem stupid, or don't want me to scream at him. So i leave it alone. I mean I understand not wanting to look dumb. Sure whatever. But two months ago when I asked him if he had his license, he wouldn'ta looked dumb if he said no. He just wanted to look like an ASSHOLE && like he was doing better then me. && that there? That right there is the point. Fuck outta here. I'm not even answerin my phone for that nigga. He could drop dead. I been through too much with that nigga, && tried to help him out toooo many times for him to be bullshittin me on some dumb shit. For what exactly? For what?

I'm done.
Duecersz
=]


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Ashley

just another little black girl with dreams. I play my music too loud, and I don't listen. I'm only at peace when I'm in pain: when my wrist is sore from writing my emotions out like blood on the band-aid of a page, or when my throat is raw from singing my thoughts like tears into the air. I'm conflicted, and unrepentant, and I like the way this blogging shit makes me feel. This is the one and only place I'll never lie, honestly.

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