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H on est ly ,

The night is always darkest just before the dawn.

.sixty-nine.
11.3.08

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?


Blog 69. I feel like i should say somethin nasty. Hmmmmmmmm...-thinks......nah. how bout we skip that? Redid the blog. the old one was gettin a lil tired. Finally decided to go head && put a playlist back on the blog. Feel kinda like a traitor tho. The thing i hate bout the playlists is that sometimes i don't be in that mood when i be bloggin, so that shit work mii nerves when i read it over. Versus if I post it individually, the mood is always gone be right. Sensical? I think so. && if it ain't who gives a shit cus this is mii blog. =D

I think Sammy's net finally cut. moment of silence. I'ma miss her till she come back. She ain't get to wish mii luck on mii interview today =[. I still think I did kinda bomb tho. I hope i get it. It ain't nothin major, just a movie theatre gig. But shit I need somethin. I'm mad i was in the book store today && it was this book called something to blog about, && i really almost picked that shit up && started readin it. Lmao I know damn well i'm not the only one who be feelin the need to blog but don't have shit to say. Or you'll be goin about your day as usual && some shit'll happen && you'll be like "i'm definitely bloggin that shit". lmao! lame as it is, we all do it.

I need a new blog counter, mine was ugly. I loved it, cus it told you everythingggggg. [ lmao i'll never forget Kris. this female said -stops going on ppls pages ] Anywaysz, i need a new one, cus I can't be havin no ugly blog counter. Everything has to be purtifull like duuuuh.

[Imagine me && you...doing things that lovers do....] I wanna say some shit like, "i'ma be happy no matter what because my joy is not predicated on others," or some mature shit like that. But if I can't be vulnerable in mii own blog then whats the point? I be needin somebody sometimes. To just like cake on the phone wit and feel safe around. Somebody to tell about mii day and have a mature conversation with. I want a mature relationship. And no, I'm not gone go out and search adn scour the earth for it. I'ma wait for it to come to me. Not because [darian] females want the nigga to do everything[/darian], just because I have a habit of picking the wrong person, just because I want a person, and the only way I know of to prevent that from happening, is to let a person come to me. I don't know, maybe thats old fashioned, or maybe I'm just scary, or whatever. But thats me && thats how its gonna be.

I'ma shuttup now
Duecesz
=]


Ashley

just another little black girl with dreams. I play my music too loud, and I don't listen. I'm only at peace when I'm in pain: when my wrist is sore from writing my emotions out like blood on the band-aid of a page, or when my throat is raw from singing my thoughts like tears into the air. I'm conflicted, and unrepentant, and I like the way this blogging shit makes me feel. This is the one and only place I'll never lie, honestly.

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