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H on est ly ,

The night is always darkest just before the dawn.

.fifty-five.
27.2.08



I write mii prayers on a post it note
Cus God never reads my four page letters
I ask him how my life's supposed to go
And when the hell this shit is gonna get better
I say I'm sorry for my attitude
And that I can't express the gratitude I've got for breathin
I give him praise for this pen, and this page
Cus its the only thing giving my life meaning


[amanda diva] I wanted to write some hot shit, some remindin you of what you forgot shit[/amanda diva]

But thats all I got.

Duecesz.

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I write my prayers on a post it note
Cus god never reads my four page letters
I ask him how my life's supposed to go
&& when the hell this shits gonna get better
I say I'm sorry for the attitude
Tell him I can't express the gratitude
I've got for breathing
I give him praise for this pen and this page
Cus its the only thing givin my life meaning
He whispers in my ear that soon all will be clear
That winter is almost gone and
Joy will come in the morning
Something special is dawning
A new era in my life
One where maybe for a moment
Everything can turn out right
But before I turn to thank him
He hits me with a blow
Says that to finance this blessing
I must lose someone I know
Says that for every happy moment
A sacrifice must be made
And to be strong for my blessing
Through the trial I must be brave
And I lie
My mouth says that I'm ready but I'm not
And when I open my eyes again
It seems that I've forgotten
everything that he just said to me
Forgotten he was near
Like the whole world's back to cloudy
And was never once so clear
i go back to writing prayers on my tiny post it note
Until I cry so hard you'd never know the prayers that I wrote
But even through my tears I thank him for the blessing that he gave
Because I know he's been listening to the prayers that I've prayed.


Ashley

just another little black girl with dreams. I play my music too loud, and I don't listen. I'm only at peace when I'm in pain: when my wrist is sore from writing my emotions out like blood on the band-aid of a page, or when my throat is raw from singing my thoughts like tears into the air. I'm conflicted, and unrepentant, and I like the way this blogging shit makes me feel. This is the one and only place I'll never lie, honestly.

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