I feel so fuckin qood yo =]
Aiqht so i'm sittin in the library @ school waitin for mii next class to start;; && iono yo like i'm sooooo happy. && i feel soooooo good. Like i feel like I'm ready this time. Like i'ma be on mii job this time. Like i could do whatever the hell i put mii mind to ya kno? I mean like normally i be havin to give miiself pep talks && shit. Like Ashley you know what you're doing. You can do this. blah blah blah. Buh now i ain't even gotta do that;; iss jus like i'm doin it, without even thinkin about it, i'm jus doin it. && i'm soooo happpy wif that. LIke you don't kno how irritating the last couple yrs of mii life has been. Cus its been so much shit i knew i could do;; && i jus ain't been doin it you kno? && i could never figure out why i wasn't doin it;; i jus wasn't. Like somethin was blockin me. Like i was gettin in mii own way. I was always extra hella super shy round people cus i didn't wanna let nobody get to kno me cus i was afraid they didn't like me. && straight up i fuckin hate when people don't like me. Seriously.
Buh lately iss jus been like fuck it ya kno? Like this is mii life && i'ma do what i want with it. Like life's too short to know that i can do something and not do it. Df kinda bullshit is that? I mean i'm not sayin this whole transformation shit is gone be easy. Its gone take work;; cus after 17 yrs of procrastinatin it ain't gone be no piece of cake to jus all the sudden start doin it right buh i can do it now. i'ma do it now. && i ain't never been so excited bout that. Never been so happy bout it you know? Like in the past its always been i'ma get right cus i have to. Now its like shit i'ma get right cus i want to, cus i wanna be livin the life i've always wanted. && i finally realized that there's no age limit on the life i want. Its not gone happen this year or next year or next month or on the first of January or on the 18 Of September its gone happen on the day when i wake up && decide to make it happen.
&& knowin that, && knowin that really my life is in mii hands && can't nobody run it but me makes everything seem brand nu. I ain't gotta treat people like i used to treat em && i ain't gotta talk to people like i used to talk to em && i ain't gotta hide from nobody no more. Ahhhhhhh that shit makes me feel good. It should make you feel good too. lmao if your life's not the way you want it you should make it that way. Asap. =]
[Randomly] This is the first blog i've ever written while the sun was up.
[More Randomly] I'ma start doin a pic of the day with mii blog, as soon as they find the fuckin charger for mii camera cus these niggas lost it again. [8-|]
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