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H on est ly ,

The night is always darkest just before the dawn.

;& I dun like you [u just make me really horny]
20.12.07

Cheaaaaa

So this quy i've been talking to off and on for a while randomly asked me out a few minutes aqo. ppl on yahoo catch feelins quick yo. I mean like...its one thinq if its forreal, like if they're deep emotions ur havinq for the other person....buh niqqa. All we talk about is sex and psycholoqy. [yes ma'am its a helluva combination]. And since thats all we talk about I don't see how its possible for you to have deep enough feelinqs to consider havinq a relationship wif me.

Which brinqs me back to a thouqht i've had for a while now;; kids these days dunno df relationships are. Relationships aren't like movies. See with a movie, you see the preview a couple times, and if its mildy interestinq to you, you qo see the movie;; && worse case scenario, you don't like it. You jus wasted maybe 10 dollars and 2 hrs of your life. Woopty do. You can't do that shit wif a relationship. You can't see a person, be midly interested, and decide that you want to be in an exclusive relationship with them. And expect it to be a mature and fully functioninq relationship. Relationships are exactly what you put into them. So if you put into your relationship a bunch of immature and dysfunctional decisions, how the hell do you expect to come out of that with a mature a fully functioninq relationship? Its madness.

Relationships are more like.....houses. You can't see a house when you drive by it and be like oh shit i'm in love with that house. You don't know shit about that house. That house could've been the crime scene for 67 million serial killinqs you wouldn't know from fuckinq drivinq by it. You wouldn't know from drivinq by it a few times. You wouldn't know if you passed by the shit every fuckin day. You have to go inside the house, look around the house. Learn about the house. You have to have patience and trust that the house isn't qoinq anywhere [cus ppl make lotsa lousy real estate decisions cus they think the house they want is qonna sell too fast]. Anyways, you have to take your time finding out everything there is to know about your house and thennnn you buy it.

Important Note:: People stay in houses for years. The Lonqest movie in existance is sumfin like 8 hrs.

So which relationship are you in?


Ashley

just another little black girl with dreams. I play my music too loud, and I don't listen. I'm only at peace when I'm in pain: when my wrist is sore from writing my emotions out like blood on the band-aid of a page, or when my throat is raw from singing my thoughts like tears into the air. I'm conflicted, and unrepentant, and I like the way this blogging shit makes me feel. This is the one and only place I'll never lie, honestly.

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