Honestly

l0lz so even tho mii christmas gift sucked [i got a battery for mii laptop] mii christmas was actually pretty damn good. after christmas dinner i went to mii play aunty house and mii ex boyfriend was there. And ion really kno how the hell it happened buh it turned out errbody else had somewhere to go, so it ended up bein jus me and him at the house. And then [ain't this bout a bitch] it starts snowin, and ion like cold for shit. So i wasn't gone leave or nothin. So we jus chillin at the house watchin movies and talkin. And he tellin me bout this gurl he feelin and how she got a dude buh he think she might be somebody he could forreal talk to so he just gone wait it out. And i tol him bout the whole situation wif brandon and how i ain't really kno wat i was doin no more so i figured i ain't need a man for the moment, && it was whatever you know i was just gone fall back on the datin scene and let that shit go. And you kno usually people be like nah Ashley don't give up that ain't the way to go, and shit like that. But nah this nigga [who's name is also Brandon 8-|;; iss wayyyyy too manyy a yall niggas] was like thass exactly what you needa do. He said i gotta bad habit of gettin wit people jus so i could be wit somebody;; knowin they no good for me, and then tryna turn em into sumfin thats good for me, and gettin mad when it don't work. And i'm thinkin, thass exactly how it be happenin. He said i can't ask nobody to love me. I gotta find somebody thats gone do it without invitation. And so we talked about that for a while and his gurl Simone and it was chill he jus hadda good ol fashioned time eatin leftovers and watchin tv and chillin.

And then we was watchin a scary movie for some dumb ass reason cus this nigga know he scary as fuck lmao. And somewhere in the middle part this nigga gone be like Ashley i'm scared hold me. So i went over there and gave him a big ol hug, and this nigga, knowin i'm small, jus gone grab me and turn me around so now we spoonin on the damn couch, and he won't let me go. Buh he was comfy so i wasn't really trippin, he gave me a lil massage and we talked some more and then the movie went off and we was still talkin and iono when the hell it happened buh eventually we both jus fell asleep in that position like some old ass lovebirds lmao.

And then at some god awful hour in the morning people started comin back to the house. And they couldn't be normal and jus wake us up. No these niggas hadda talk shit while we was sleep. Talkin all that awwwwww looka them they all in love again and all that other shit. And so this nigga woke up all bashful and shit && he woke me up kissin me on the cheek and whisperin mii name. So they was talkin moreeeee shit. And you know how you don't even be thinkin some shit until other people start talkin bout it? Well there you go. So the rest of the day now me and this nigga lookin at each other again like hol up the fuck was all that that happened last night. And we was walkin to the store and he was like I had jus forgotten how much of a down ass female you were, and how much i enjoy talkin to you and kickin it wit you, and how you feel in mii arms. And i was like [:">] buh you kno ion believe in makin the same mistake twice and i jus tol this nigga i was leavin niggas alone so i'm not the type to rush back into a relationship that ain't work the first time [even tho thinkin back on it, iono wdf went wrong the first time]. Anywaysz....we chilled the rest of the day and let errbody talk they shit buh i aint' wanna spend the night again cus of the way the situation was startin to look so i took mii lil ass home buh i'll prolly go back tomorrow cus it was jus hella fun to be there.

Moral Of the Story:: I had been spazzin a lot the last couple days. Jus cryin && feelin like errthing was goin wrong and i couldn't do shit about it and nothin wasn't ever gone be right for me again. And jus like havin someone to jus stop what they were doin and actually look at me and listen, and then hold me for a minute and say errthings gone be okay. It made me feel hella better. And so now i feel better. Like i could face the world again cus i got errthing i need. I got mii friends && i got mii family and i got the good sense god gave me && i'ma be alright =]

The End.